i shouldnt have .
i shouldnt have listened to your stories .
i shouldnt have pestered to hear more .
i shouldnt have felt they were helping me know you more .
now i'm stuck .
stuck in your pasts .
stuck in the thoughts of you and them .
lethargic memories .
but they impact on a slow and steady basis .
they impact me especially .
even my sleepless nights begin with these thoughts .
times where i sit up in bed not knowing which is actual reality .
so hopelessly trying to forget and leave them all behind .

-
i had a dream i that was falling from the sky
at 90miles an hour ;
i was bound to crash and die ;
save me from this place ;
heaven knows i'm falling
for you my sweet embrace ;

=(